I, Mobius Ms. does not know she holds time on a leash. A walk in woods lasts as long as woods. Mushrooms do not melt away. One wades into amber willingly. I still walk beside you, as if you. You still walk beside me as if me, your arm around me, my weight upon your shoulder. We bear it . . . feathers. We cannot get there from here. (It is exactly two hours from my bed . . . . . . to your bed.) We cannot get here from there. (It is exactly two decades from your bed . . . . . . to mine.) I did not leave. You did not come. I begin the walk knowing its end. Soybeans soya We tread the hardest, driest ridges, neither hard nor dry, soft enough for sowing soybeans with our toes, more than damp, wet, well wet. Frost not yet having bitten is poised to strike. Yet, now, for us: calm, comfortable though soggy, this day. We veer right, Siamese compass points, pulled together more than by North, each forsaking direction for our notion of it. We have no destination, tugged perhaps by dark (hard to see in such soft light.), bent toward supper at the end, unhungered, starting out. We haven’t had forever, yet. The woods are not easy to enter. A moat intervenes, not perilous, but at the zoo it might keep things with teeth from biting you The way to cross is always ahead or through. The water lies perhaps eight inches deep. (on the average) Our boots are seven inches high. (on the average) Our still dry toes, overconfident, impatient, reckless, say what the hell, there are no alligators! It’s time to cross! At any place! Here ! Now! M.C.P. (me) I carry thee . . . (Water depth: ten inches on the absolute.) . . . into briars whose lace evokes a delicacy which isn’t there at all . . . . they bite! Without a map we find no door and, searching, find no key. Bulldoze we backwards through brambles into woods, bowing, bobbing, oddly graceful, (Twenty feet of barbed wire is now a single final briar.) suddenly we are free to rise - levitation in a simple gesture fine enough to lift a tiny cup of China tea. We set each other free and straighten as we bent, orientally. We turn and enter Seikei winter wood. The maze has shredded our proportion; we have shed our size in these surroundings. We’ve dwarfed, now soybeans, ourselves, to, perhaps, a larger eye. There’s no phone pole in sight to give these oaks a proper height, no squirrel ninety times the length of nut; the moat was deep as eye. On this farther shore we’re at the mercy of a higher sky. There is no airplane or other bird to give this sky a human scale; The pine that needled through the Fall and all the rest whose leaves have fallen short of South for winter have buried the measurement of masters: beer cans and other castaways, twelve inches to the foot. We’ve feet, but what’s an inch, some other kind of toe? Despite your father’s deed to this and all we can survey, dare we assert dominion on any terms? We do, as heir apparent, not own this place; we are guests of owning not. Succumb, says reason; Enjoy, says all the rest. Within these floral boundaries we are the only fauna here relying on each other only for the sense of what we are. Outside of time, as well as not to scale and out of sight, we know we could not have planned it better, and set about the job at hand. One does not find mushrooms until one finds mushroom. We search in haste to plunder. (first frost will waste the wonder like crystal guillotine.) Then . . . there’s one! its head still upon its neck. We catch it . . . Ours! wrest it from its ferny nest. Now, bent to mushroom height we see them plentifully through prisms of their lower air: abundant . . . a bonanza. One picks more quickly than one can later: clean, and sort, and cook, and eat, and more . . . Two pick far more greedily than one and one. Later, maybe we’ll determine which is Icarus, and what is ick. Headstone furnished oaken parlor pallored: by spidery overhang, by squinting sun: anemic, almost none, by sea stunt rime an efflorescence enough light to lance the shade revealing shades within the shade: circle within circle, headstone ring, marble bible bookmarks inscribed once, erased, etched again: Anonymous. Lodestones drawing me as from a sore, or dream. Still erect, I parallel the living as you lie level with all your rest. I could not read your ghost of chisel print. I didn’t try, I didn’t pry - not through lack of interest - I respect the intimacy of death. Do what you will down there beneath your oaken canopy; I did not peek. Later, I asked, “Who? Your names were not familiar. I am at the end of pier Silent Mirrored Unbeheld Bobber awaiting fish or recall. I float on wood on water. I assist geese lifting from earth with my belief in flight. Supported by mists, buoyed by grays, drawn between this time and this place I disavow distance in any court of physical law. I am in contempt of gravity. I draw slender vowels from chimneys by the faintest consonance of air and lips. I weep, but do not frighten duck away. This is stuck like music sticks, but this will never end. Mobius at the beginning, I am, at the end, Mobius. At the end you are leaving within me. In the beginning, I am entering within you. We skirt the soybean field, traverse the moat, brazen the briars, molest mushrooms, séance a cemetery, plumb an endless pier . . . (That last was me, alone.) The rest: my arm around you, through you, you equally surrounding me. A root, a seed toed into fertile mush a putty amorphous. The distant chimney finesses a final sentence with an exclamation point (perhaps the chimney is near.) There is never again. There is only now, in handcuffs. Here dog. Doggie doggie dog. Dog. dog. Abner, you’ve lost weight. NO! The scale beam is longer, More subject to error. I would not make you lose weight. I would not have you lose weight. You are the same, Abner. You still molest my knee, An expendable. Instead of coming back and turning right (The house is always on our right; we are clockwise people.) I turn left for a long moment alone on the pier. You turn right into the house, into bronze. I remain lead upon the wood upon the water. I rummage through all my pockets and from them throw something . . . Midripple . . . plunk . . . lingers, until the end of dip dip dip. . . . . Waiting, I see the marsh, the woods are stippled with our footprints each with us still in ,it all with us still in them. Office echoes quiet typewriter. Each day I eat half a lunch for two, far too much for one. You went all the way home for lunch, and dinner, and breakfast, leaving your pencil, and all of your correspondence, notes . . . notes. . . . . . in the stillness of geese, who, risen above the earth, do not climb higher, and cannot fall, wallpaper the mind. I had many thoughts while you were in the house. I’ll tell you while we walk. I like your jacket . . . goose down. Now we trespass marshes, evicting silence as water is evicted by diving into it, silence closing behind us like a wake. When we speak to each other the marsh absorbs it with all its other gasses, holds it like a breath. Sanctuary doesn’t leak one drop of gossip. We’d better find some mushrooms though to validate our time away, (Virtue is only a mother away, and she quite near.) But, so long as we do not gather mushrooms, we do not have to go back ever, supper would forever stew. We would own time, every way of it, but one. But mushrooms do find us. Drawn by harness of collecting fingers we found what we sought, which ended the search. What you don’t know is that when you turn right to leave our world, I turn left to stay within. I enter the cemetery without knocking, respectful of your relationship with each other and with my friend - your relative. I do not peek or stare. I envy. A quiet gathering of peers, a loud intruder, however mute, who wants to understand before he joins you. Again we parted nameless, you, because I couldn’t read yours, me, because you couldn’t ask. Again I asked our friend; again she told me; again I forgot. Someday, I’ll learn to listen. With no more feet than two, I occupy every other footprint we made. Should we count the soybeans? Or weigh them simply in our minds? Numberless, they weigh nothing, untouched. The joy, the pain of growth heal over like the field, forgotten like the crop, except for soybeans, crop droppings, tithed to furrows, persisting, a currency of time, escrowed until the time is come again for another go at it, another golden glint of green in God’s eye, another crop and its survivors. Mushrooms- berries of decomposition: take them, take them all . . . try! You do not endanger mushrooms, you cannot arrest decay by plundering them from their hosts. If sin was intended, none was committed. Ms does not know she holds time on a leash. Abner, into the house, the parlor can be clearly seen through an open window from the end of the pier. Ms is holding the phone, a shorter leash, (at which end is she attached?) and as she listens, and responds, a blackboard is erased, rechalked with smiles I’ve never seen, laughter, never heard. My end of pier is sinking. Whoever I was, I am within the loop until you break the loop, let time fall limp, go flat with us still in it. Abner come out come Here’s real mud and all the rest of it miles of scents, tracks, footprints. There can be lead and bronze in memory, as well as things that have never been. All of memory’s elements can sink to bottoms of forgotten waters, or float on nothing more substantial than air. Time never breaks, only clocks, and leashes, and Mobius loops. You said you would remember me complete. I can’t remember a single set of footprints, only pairs. So how, for you, can I, as half a handshake, ever be complete? Of all the weights of mist, of gray, of bronze, of mushrooms, of geese, three hundred pounds of us persist on separate scales, however nourished apart. Three hundred pounds of memory will tend to lose some weight, however well I see in gray . . . Here, You, Abner. I, Mobius Ms does not know she holds time on a leash. L5 ®Copyright 1973 Jack Scott. All rights reserved. From Poemystic.com
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