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Gord

2020-09-16 02:35 am
By tribal elders,
Despite wire fences, 
Highest pleasure, 
By mine forever;

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Blake Garner

2020-09-15 10:47 am
No secrets
You keep me speechless,
I can not lie
I hate that I love you,
If you knew the damage
Would you love me correctly,
The hell you put me through
I no longer want to be on the ride,
You knew I from the start
That I fall hard and fast,
I try to feel ok
While you play with my emotions, 
There's no need to explain
If you think what your doing is ok,
I can try to get up and feel ok again
But I'm just domino in your game,
Does this make you feel better
Being on top in this one sided love,
I wake up in terror
To ask myself what am I doing here,
Why do I let myself endure
The torture of your love,
I can not lie
I love you,
No more holding inside
This dirty little secret I keep,
I'm tired of the mistreatment 
I'm tired of the avoidance, 
You say I hurt you
From a drunken fight,
Its time to bring to light
Your drunken words,
When we met you knew
I was unwell,
One night amongst your drunken lips
You spoke to me a terrible fate,
It haunts me in my thoughts
The DJ to my demons party,
You spoke love sober
Yet you spoke death drunk,
Your tinder lips slipped
I wish you would've died,
You hated me for what I did
You hated the fact I was broken,
I set it aside for the sheer fact
That I love you truly,
However you still to this day
Blame my mental instability, 
I try so hard every day
I fight for my next breath.

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Innasense

2020-09-14 11:17 pm
”The End”

The night is young, 
Barely swollen with stars 
When the illusion shatters

As though everyone I had ever known
was gone
The world as I had come to know it, 
Ended.
Apocalyptic, 
And without near enough warning. 

Those paper souls lost,
Their memories fast fading, 
The stories they told, 
Words lost in the wind 
Some names forgotten,
Others stamped permanently 
onto my brain, 
autographs on my heart. 

I reminisced for a moment 
On the places we’d been, 
Conversations had, 
Friendships shared, 
Hardships weathered.

Bright sunny days spent outside 
Or solitary nights spent avoiding sleep, 
Blanketed by the silent words between us, 
Alone but for each other’s company.

Now I just feel alone, utterly, 
This finality staring me in the face 
Nothing left to do but face this music
Slipping away at too rapid a pace
These final notes, 
One last embrace. 

I tell myself I must accept this end, 
But allow myself one backward look 
Steel my heart,
Heave a sigh, 
And with great trepidation...



close this book. 

❤️📚💔

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Gord

2020-09-13 11:11 pm
Global player who creates the local cable,
Writing nomenclatures with known names,
Hoping workstations become playstations,
Whose drone planes zip along to no shame;

Teaching to make rain and thunder,
How your shame is the pain of others,
Whose praise and worship is nonsense.

Space traveler, declares his slave radical:
"No place for a sail with no waves,
No stone age for a failing sage,
Place the stones on his grave,
Then walk away."

Teaching to take pain asunder, 
How should I, seek, become a hermit,
With my star-ship lacking an AC?

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Innasense

2020-09-13 09:17 pm
“Wake Up” 

Ahh, the unexpected depression 
of waking up to greet another day 
This menial mundane monstrosity 
Shaded in varieties of gray 

Sloughing through
begrudged routines,
Caged in by an endless checklist 
Punctuated only by commas. 

Collecting “cherished moments” 
On your camera roll 
To say the day was a happy one. 

Hiding behind the infernal screen, 
A spyglass to a world you don’t even want
But hold onto anyway 
with white-knuckled grip, 
Afraid that reality won’t measure up 
To this life stickered with fantasy labels 

And you wonder when the dreaming stopped, 
Probably that moment you realized you still hadn’t woken up a superhero, 
Or that unicorns don’t exist outside of fairy tales

When tomorrows bled into yesterdays 
And you looked back in wide wonder 
Questioning how you collected so many rings in your trunk 
And pondering where all the whimsy went 

Chasing shadows of what was
And what could have been, 
Gazing into the abyss of what-ifs 

Unnecessary self-induced miseries. 
A waste of numbered moments.

Time that could be spent counting freckles that bridge across tiny noses, 
And listening to the relentless chatter 
Of a little heart that has not yet been broken, 
And who still believes in the maybes. 

I see you little souls. 
For you, I awaken. 

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Innasense

2020-09-13 09:15 pm
Poetry Satirized

What is this thing they call poetry? 
It’s mostly “pretty words” you see 

Ok, maybe there’s a bit more to it... 
I’ll see if I can walk ya through it. 

We rap similes and metaphors, 
Figurative language whores 

Plays on words 
And turns of phrase
Emotional squalor 
And issues for days 

Lovers lost 
And sadness deep 
Words that when trapped 
Keep us from sleep 

“Racing to the finish” 
Or dragging our feet 
And not to compete 
or attempt to defeat 
But simply
To complicatedly complete 

Alleviate or desecrate
All depends upon the date
Or what kind of day we had 
Pissed off, celebratory, sad
Or in poetic terminology, 
Raging, blessed, melancholy 

We personify and mystify 
“Let them see it through our eyes” 

We rhyme and reason 
Or sometimes we don’t 
It’s not that we can’t 
It’s more likely we won’t 

Abstract or concrete 
Or both all at once 
Painting deeeeeep pictures...

But sometimes only of confusion 
Poetic delusions 😉
Words made in illusions 
Or maybe allusions?
No wonder we can’t always reach a conclusion...

So “pretty words” 
though they may often be, 
There is a bit more to this thing...

Poetry.

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Innasense

2020-09-13 09:12 pm
OCDemons

An O for the things that I just can’t let go 
And maybe it’s not even the same things as last week,
But there all the same, 
Ground into my head 
As though they were the only thoughts that ever mattered
Sacred and necessary 
Though likely invisible or nonexistent
just a few days ago 
And maybe tucked 
back into the void 
In just a few more 

But I suppose it’s better than time spent 
Wondering 
What a head-on collision would be like 
Or how it might feel 
To put knife through bone 

It’s dangerous 
Inside my head sometimes 

C for the things that I just can’t not do 
Always look right when crossing a bridge 
Wear just enough purple 
Get the numbers right 
Watch the color patterns 
Check and check and check again 

I tell myself I do these things  
To clear a clouded head 
Unfortunately 
Seems to do 
The opposite instead 

D for the disorder in my head 
Brought on by 
A record on repeat all day, 
A ridiculous collection of 
unbreakable rules 
And the “honestly, 
what would REALLY happen?” 
Thoughts that make me feel insane 
The static buzz inside my brain 

So I 
Read it away. 
Write it away. 
Breathe it away. 
(Over)Think. It. Away. 
To Hell with you demons. 
Go plague someone else today. 

Oh...and see you in a little bit. 
😉😑

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Innasense

2020-09-13 09:10 pm
Static 

Filled up with all that I can’t seem to say 
Brain buzzing 
...Static...
Like the constant angry drone of so many bees

Short-circuiting and electrified 
Monological trappings trapped inside 
An open book 
With nothing to hide 
But still the words won’t come alive 
...All I hear is static...

Chest compressed 
and short of breath 
static, Static, STATIC

Word obsessed, 
Linguistically repressed, 
Time-limited and hard-pressed 
Leaving me languid and distressed 
...Static...

Thoughts hellbent on sweet release
Chasing words and losing sleep 
Those just-right lyrics are buried deep
Underneath the static 

Ripping at my throat 
Itching in my fingers 
Insides aching
Quivering, quaking 
All this FUCKING static 
....................................................
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Frenzy fading 

Thoughts relocating 

Words spilled out 

Conscious creating 

A state of nirvana elevating 

And all I feel is


Silence 

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Blake Garner

2020-09-12 06:42 pm
You would not believe your eyes
If you seen all the dark thoughts,
I keep at tide inside my head
If only that was true,
I can no longer control
these racing thought,
I'm a danger to myself
I've succumb to pain,
I've felt numb for too long
I inflict pain to just feel something, 
Thoughts constantly racing
Never a chance to think straight,
I've found a healthy affliction 
In the pain I inflict upon myself,
I can feel it now
Like cardiac arrest,
The slip of the chair
The tension around my neck,
Ill try my best,
The pull of the blade
Against my wrist,
I've been trying my best
How much do I invest,
Before its all over
No longer numb,
My Demons
They catch me when I slip,
Motor control loss
Mindless acts,
Just a permanent solution 
To a temporary feeling,
Exactly how long is temporary
All i want is for this living nightmare to be over,
These demons consuming me alive
Fighting is no longer a solution,
Don't stop me now
I know now noone would shed a tear,
Noone would shutter a sound
To stop me,
Forget yesterday
I dont wanna see tomorrow,
Remember when you told me
That I was better off dead,
I knew it from the start
I was never any good to anyone,
You can believe it
When im not here tomorrow,
Today I find something great
Today I find a Healthy Affliction. 

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Gord

2020-09-11 05:58 am
Drinking Bowls and pitchers,
like smoking coals and timber;
If only bones could lift,
Our home, save the children,
Even buried having all gold and silver,
Can an afterlife supply of groves and vineyards?

Old and crippled, mouth of the old man dribbles,
His eyes meet to eventually form a river;
How can he romance with trombones and singers, 
When he sees and himself, groans and withers, 
Lays down again amongst the toads and lizards;
Eyes hollow and wrinkled, bathrobe, slippers,
Windows, the stones that hit them, now coal,
Used to build all the roads and bridges.

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Gord

2020-09-08 02:23 pm
I stayed at the Cambridge,
Apples on the table, bliss,
They can replace it.
I am brave and amazing,
Plus I stayed at the Cambridge,
Framed paintings of swiss,
Along with playthings,
Replaced daily.

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Gord

2020-09-01 04:48 am
A little boating, hidden motives, 
Net cast far and wide, rod and line, 
Bits of fishing where the hook is life,
We are the bait and our path decided.

A single holding, hot and high, 
One's Lifetime amidst the roses,
A river flowing, ascots and wine,
Single toll trip last night, no guilt. 

No guild and no scrill.
No landmarks or sites.
Gifts of civil clothing,
Met with concerning eyes,
In the yards at night,
Burning, the whole thing.

The inner coding of my heart of little noting,
A bit of doting, conflicts of the coal bin,
Am I composing, or composting with silicosis,
Wasting away my time with simple nothings,
Served of cold beer unnoticed with business going.

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Gord

2020-08-26 12:57 pm
In defense, elected one,
My experiment, my estimates,
Defend the world,
Descended of.

He thinks of them vulgar,
His second son, Gordon.
Smacked on his buttocks,
Told: Invent the world,
Which will never come,
With medicine life crumbles.

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Mary Steffen

2020-08-20 06:44 pm
Sun
Rising high
To the sky's limit
Another world from beyond
A home of Utopia 
Searching tomorrow
A new world
Home

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Gord

2020-08-20 01:53 pm
Books opens, pictures,
Bulldozer, fixtures,
Foot soldier of bitterness,
Do good moments wither?

Pull over, hood open,
Notice you could use a push,
Look to the wool-grower,
Whose home you turned to dust,
Hopeless with his heritage lost.

Is a cactus cost-effective?
Is an organ, mostly defective,
Less than nothing?
Ask a cleric, politician or elective,
At best, they repeat what they must.

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crybaby

2020-08-20 11:26 am
im literally dying,
dying, dying, dying
i just wanna give up 
crying, crying, crying.

it’s cold in my room
it looks like a tomb,
it’s cold in the house
all the people are out
hiding from each other
not like those ideal lovers
we’re cold without 
a warm hearted spouse.

you’re shouting those words
i wish ive never heard
everybody is hurt
and left in the dirt.

for who is it good
and why is it useful 
that we don talk
the way we used to?

im literally dying,
dying, dying, dying
i just wanna give up 
crying, crying, crying.

but i just cant,
cuz im in tears,
i have many fears
we wont talk for years.

i wanna speed up the time
to help healing the scares.
it’s such a fucking shame, 
tomorrow’s valentine’s day
we should be having fun
but i guess it’s over now
cuz we dont love the same
oh what a shame.

it’s shit being alone
so darken your clothes
and shut up your thoughts 
it’ll be better in months 
but who really knows?
who really knows?

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crybaby

2020-08-20 11:24 am
8 years old
playing with dolls
marriage between thots
never touched the boys

then at school
cool swimming pools
putting on your clothes
causes me to drool

in 7th grade
joined the parade
thats the time i came
out of the shade

i regret
not sleeping at
that one night i said
what we cant forget

you pretend not knowing my face
you never call me by my name
i just need to know
what’s under the snow
what’s the name of the show
that you play

i wish i were straight
or you were be gay
if only you would lay
down with me babe
look me in the eyes
like i look in yours
kiss me on my mouth
and i would be yours

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crybaby

2020-08-20 11:23 am
i met you on a friday night
it was all good and fun
i was stressed and fatigue
i knew im out of your league
but well i tried

i tried and i tried and i tried
having your attention
i lied and i lied and i lied
to earn your affection

when the party was over
you said let’s grab a toaster
and then you took me over
we got in to your rover

then days and weeks came and went
but granny had a heart attack
you said depression sucked 
and you only felt love 
when you were drunk

i tried and i tried and i tried
stopping you, making you stay
i lied and i lied and i lied
to look like im okay

you are an alcoholic 
no heart but many lovers
our love was narcotic
daydreaming like it’s summer

i wish we could go back
i wish you were sober
i think that it’s so bad
that i am so so sad
while here you are over
this shit

i wish i could go back
i wish i could know that
if you loved me in that moment
when your eyes weren’t open
and the time got frozen
real quick 

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